Don't you Dare Doubt.

 "Don't you Dare Doubt."
Try saying that 5 times fast . . . . or don't . . do whatever you want, really.
I don't know if you know this, but I basically have social anxiety. Hopefully that's not obvious enough that you would've already known that . . .
Like I'm shy. REALLY shy.
And I kind of hate myself for it sometimes . . . where am I going with this?
I almost forgot haaaa . . . the point is, last weekend I hung out with tons of people I didn't know, and holy animal. I didn't hardly even know what to do.
How do you get to know people if they all already know eachother?
. . heck, I have no idea.
Anyhow, I tried to not be totally socially awkward. (I probably failed.. but ehh, yolo?)
Then through the wonderful technology of our day, I've stayed somewhat in touch with the people down there . . . you know . . where I was hanging out . . which isn't where I live . . . OOOkayyy.
Anyways. I'm gonna skip to the point.
 I've totally been doubting myself.
Let's be real, they were all probably thinking "who is that weird chick, we don't even know her, why is she here?"
I was definitely doubting the decision to stay in touch with them . . . what's the point of that?
And the whole time I was down there, I felt like I couldn't be myself . . . every group has their own "social norms" if you will . . I didn't know how to fit in down there!
That's just one example of doubting myself (it probably didn't make sense, so sorry . .) but sometimes do you just get in this rut? You can't even explain why you're not having a good day . . .you doubt yourself a lot, and don't know how to answer "are you okay?".
NOW DON'T YOU DARE DOUBT YOURSELF.
Don't feel down on yourself,
Love yourself,
Help others love themselves,
Be confident with who you are,
Be independent,
We all have moments where we fall into that rut, but its just that - a rut. And there are people to help us out, it won't last forever. You just have to get through it.
Now I'm not saying it won't be difficult. Or that you won't be pessimistic about it. Hopefully you can be optomistic during hard times, but the point is that you choose whether or not you get out.
The help that you recieve - you have to choose to accept it. And you have to be strong.
And you HAVE to know you are worth so much more than you can imagine.
I can say all this, in fact that's all I can do - talk. But you have to decide to believe it.
Please, please believe it.
Trust me, you are worth so much. You don't need to doubt yourself.
Keep running after what you want, no matter how many times you fall into the ruts, because you'll always get out and keep running . . .
If  you want to - you can definitely keep running.
 

        "Come on friends get up now,
                               you're not alone at all."

Leap

"I guess what I'm trying to say is I don't think you can measure life in terms of years. I think longevity doesn't necessarily have anything to do with happiness. I mean happiness comes from facing challenges and going out on a limb and taking risks. If you're not willing to take a risk for something you really care about, you might as well be dead." -Diane Frolov

I recently wrote a fear narrative for english about the first time I went cliff jumping, Its also titled Leap. What can I say, it must be a favorite or something.

Its powerful, that word Leap.
Risks.
Chances.
Risking it all for a hope of what could happen.
Taking a chance to change something for the better.

You tell me, is it better to play it safe and have a grand ol' time in our comfort zone, or to push ourselves to do things we never thought we could and become better people?
I think if you're not willing to take a risk for something you really care about, you might as well be dead. ^ (see what I did there heh heh)

Now of course my fellow beings this does not mean to be stupid.
Its kinda like the whole "YOLO" concept. This is not an excuse to do stupid things, but rather a motivation to do things that help you grow as a person.

Takings risks can be Scary. Terrifying. Difficult. But completely and utterly worth it.
In my experience and I would hope in yours, something good always comes out of taking that Leap. Even if you have a bad or say, undesirable, thing happen, it still helps you learn and grow and stretch yourself.

The more you Leap, the closer you are to being who you are capable of being.

Don't let fear rule you, be who you know you are and then even more.
Love people while you can.
Enjoy life.
Write letters.
Buy old typewriters and film cameras.
Draw.
Write your soul dry.
Appologize.
Make someones day.
Wake up early to stretch and make a nice breakfast.
TAKE RISKS.
Compliment others.
Don't regret anything.
Just, simply, Leap.

That's where happiness lies.
Fear nothing, you have all the help you need, love. (Wherever it may be coming from.)

 

 

 

Just, simply, Leap.

Change your life.

You choose how your story ends.

 

**I apologize that this post was simalar to "Carpe Diem", the important stuff is always repeated, you know ;)**

Carpe Diem

If I were to say to you,
"Just go for it!"
What would 'it' be?

Carpe diem: Used to urge someone to make the most of the present time and give little thought to the future.

Its never too late to change, to go after what you want, to be the person YOU want to be.
Dont waste your days just wishing, you have to work for IT, work for what you want.

Make the Most of What You Have.
Smile at Strangers.
Dont Complain.
Be Spontaneous.
Wake Up and Live.
Dont Over Think.
Write in a Diary.
Take Pictures.
Treasure the Moment.
Be Kind.
Dont Worry.
Be Confident.
JUST GO FOR IT.

Make a Change in someones life.

Make a Change in your life.

Grab hold of your opportunities.

Carpe Diem.

<3 Lyssa

YOUR Summer of Change

"Have this intention: Today every word you utter will be chosen conciously. You will refrain from complaints, condemnation. and criticism."
Thank you Twitter!

Im not going to go through the usual "I'm bad at blog keeping" bit. The truth is I can't write unless something really inspires me, if that makes sense.
This tweet did just that.

You know, we NEVER really know what someone is going through, even if we think we do.
I've made it a personal goal of mine to follow the above. overall what comes out of your mouth is your choice. Let's not let it be something that brings others down.

We have to work at it though, to change, to be better. It's going to take effort, and thought, and lots of determination.

It's the same when it comes to being kind and not judging others. And just know, with that little bit of effort, you could change someones life.

This is a summer for change. YOUR summer for change. To not only better yourself, but to lift others spirits, and make them feel their worth.

<3 Lyssa

If you don't like where you are, then CHANGE it.

    I've realized lately I'm a wimp. Not the: I'm not very strong and have a record of 10 push-ups, wimp...The: I always back out of opportunities, I never reach out to people, and I'm all tied up in 3 emotions, (this is mostly about boys, and especially one specifically), kind of a wimp.
My 3 emotions that I am not on very good terms with at the moment:
-Fear
-Nervousness
-Anxiousness
:/
I hate to even think I let them rule my life!!! It especially doesn't help that I'm shy...
But as I was sitting down I was remembering all the time we spent together :)
That one night I swear you gave me a billion hugs and I was nervous as heck... But back then I tried to stay, instead of run away, and now this sentence is really cheesy because the truth just ryhmed.
Point is I miss nights like those..... I hate never having the guts to talk to you at school.
It might as well be tearing me apart...I am so frustrated with myself.

I like to imagine having a nice conversation after school again, or talking at lunch, or the smiles you give me that make me die (they make me smile too) ;)

I just wish it was like it used to be...suddenly fear is everywhere. And I can't get out of it.

I just wish when I thought about even simply saying "hey", the nervousness wouldn't show up.

I just wish that when I finally have convinced myself I can do it, I wouldn't get anxious.

I AM SICK OF IT.

But I just can't break free. Because Im not ready.
It's me, it's ALL ME.
While I was sitting down I was remembering, wishing, hoping, then realizing.

I am ready.
I'm not going to let them control what I do. Im ready, because I finally realized how its killing me to only see you. NOT talk, NOT hug, NOT give high-fives. So I've decided to NOT back out....Its all me. :) And so in that case...

                   Im going to CHANGE it.

There...numerous pictures for my enjoyment and ispiration (feel free to enjoy and be inspired as well) :D